Mindfulness

Vanaprastha into the Sixties

I pulled away from my work life in my Mid 50’s. I made art, was available to assist my family and began to pursue a daily meditation practice. I felt compelled to do this.

My husband passed away and I gave a bit of a try at dating but it did not really feel right. I understand that being in a solo state has afforded me valuable time for self-reflection, contemplation and personal growth. In relationships you grow – this Solo Practice is good too.

Ancient Hindu teachings have terms for 4 stages of life. I believe I have been practicing a modern version of Vanaprastha– stage 3 and that the concept is helpful to frame the time of life where you become aware that you have an expiry date.

The Ancient Hindu were direct about how to be in Vanaprastha. You were to go live simply in a nearby forest, contemplate and be available to teach others. Be a Sage for others while coming to terms with your own mortal nature.

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I think I am doing a North American, female, 21C – version of this. I live simply, I have been clearing my home of unnecessary items. I share my ideas and resources with my family and whoever else wants to discuss life with me. I meditate daily and get into nature as much as possible. This feels right for where I am at now.

I am definitely grieving my many loves and passions gone. I often feel a sweet sadness for things past that few people now share with me. The trick is to not get stuck in these states of emotion and mind. To realize that this time, this day has great value in it’s own right.

I actually feel deep gratitude throughout each day that my life is abundant enough for me to have time to meditate and contemplate. I still socialize with family and friends but I take considerable time each day to embrace my own soul. How lucky I am to have this opportunity!

This time of slow down, contemplation and rest – it just feels right.

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In a culture that understood we have stages of life – each as valid as the next I could answer people who ask questions about relationship and ambitions with – I am good. I am practicing Vanaprastha. Looking towards Moksha. Modern Cultures the world over should discuss this more. Clarifying that I am a spirit being – not a spirit doing with one word would be great!

Peace🏕

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Healing, Meditation, Mindfulness, Non Attachment

Star Tetrahedrons

At a guided group meditation I had an unusual experience of energy flowing through my body. It was a physical and visionary experience. I saw and sensed the energy as a geometric form. I assumed I had entered into Theta level brain waves. It is at the slower and deeper Theta level that vision states occur. A subconscious meets conscious mind – affair.

When the star first contacted me I blocked it – Control Mode but then I let go into a mindful meditation state. The grid of energy centred itself in and through my heart chakra. As the meditation went on the grid connected to more of my body’s energy network. I felt like a powerful healer was doing a hands on energy session with me. Super Reiki!

I have since come to know that what I saw is called a Tetrahedron Star. When I googled what I saw I located geometric images and a huge number of sites with their interpretation of a what is also called a Merkaba. The best graphic I found belongs to the Aurora Ascension site.

My experience of it felt very personal and it didn’t feel right to take an interpretation of it from The Web. It was interesting to read other people’s thoughts about what it might be though. It is a fairly well known phenomena (in certain circles) that can occur during prayer and meditation. The question was what did it mean for me?

What I decided was that the “Star Tetrahedron” manifested from the vortex (as Esther Hicks would say) to let me know that there IS more than 3D World. A moment of connection to the larger soul group – perhaps god. I decided not to over interpret the experience. To keep the analysis to a minimum. The experience hasn’t come again and that is okay but I haven’t forgotten it either. I keep it as a touch stone for when I need a reminder that we are more than what usually appears in this 3D world.

Peace 🌸

Buddhism, Contemplation, Meditation, Mindfulness

Simultaneous Co-existence

I have come to believe that we are energetic beings existing here materially as we co-exist simultaneously – elsewhere. This belief formed via a meditation/vision where I caught a glimpse of myself as quite connected to a realm beyond. I had a sense of 80% of myself in the “elsewhere” with the rest filtering down a connecting cord into my body. The body – the ‘I’ was experiencing the material world and sharing it with The Elsewhere. As fast as I saw this – it disappeared. Just a glimpse, a moment’s insight.

The vision reminded me of the Chilean scientists Humberto Maturana and Francisco Varella. I studied them during my thesis writing days. I perceived in their theories the notion that that mind is not located in the brain nor body. Mind connects through us in relation to others, perhaps – The Elsewhere. I reviewed their writings thinking that I could find a concise quote about their take on this to share here. It couldn’t be easily found and I realized that what I thought they had said was actually my personal synthesis and understanding of their very complex work. I have no doubt over simplified it. Still – something there resonated with my meditative insight. We are more than what our day to day conscious being is aware of. We are not in this alone.

I get to thinking that all Earth beings are looping here in the material world. Cycling our material bits about the constructs of the planet – like water does on earth. A cloud one day – dinosaur pee the next. “Ashes to ashes – dust to dust but Then I get a glimpse of myself coexisting in more than one dimension. A powerful spiritual moment that leads me to believe in the etherical cycle along with the material one.

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Soul Light

PEACE 🌼

Healing, Meditation

Dimensional Healing

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Dreamscape Streams

As a child I had a reoccurring dream where I would place my hands on people, and heal their ailments. This went on until I took an energy work class in my late 20’s. At that point I guess I had brought the ability up to my conscious mind and my subconscious let that message go – the dreams stopped. I continue taking healing classes of different kinds as there are many ways to do this. I never took up being a healer formally. I have participated in it for a long time though by occasionally working on myself, friends and family.

I was at an Adam Dreamhealer workshop where he explained he had moved from doing healing to teaching healing because we heal better when we do it ourselves. I gained a lot of insight from Adam’s work. His books have these really useful illustrations, his talks are sensible and full of “how to” information. When I check in on his social media sites I still find his writing and presentations most interesting. He has gone from being the youthful Dreamhealer to mature father and Dr. McLeod – Naturopath as an adult. Busy and evolving – he doesn’t do exactly the same workshops now as I had access to but he is still most interesting.

Through Adam and other classes on healing I began to practice Long Distance Healing akin to Focused Intention and Remote Healing. This is done while away from the person. It entails being in a meditative state where your mind is settled, clear and in alignment with your higher “best” self. You approach the person or your own self with respectful separation (make sure there is agreement that your intentions are appreciated and allowed). Visualize the person or an image of your self at arms length or so away from you.

Ask for permission to send healing light, wait for a reply – just listen to the person first. What comes up? – pay attention and then offer the person your healing energy transmission. I think taking a class in this is important but it is simple to try it on your own to get the idea.

I do more listening than sending than I used to. One of the things that seems to really help is to simply assist the person with grounding to the earth through their base chakra and connect them to their own higher self /star through their crown chakra. Help their own energy to flow and release. Yup – I think maybe a class in Reiki or other healing modality or two is a good thing to do if you are interested in this work.

Peace 🌟

Meditation, Mindfulness

The Low light Daze

It is a cold winter day here in Vancouver. The height of what I call The Canadian Depression Season. I am not depressed this season like I have been in some winters past. I attribute part of this to a regular meditation practice.

It is no wonder people hesitate to go for assistance with depression or other conditions as once you enter the medical system you are given labels that stay in your mind and become absolutes. Once a person in authority like a Physician (or other expert) labels you this or that – it goes deep into the subconscious. I know they need to do this to make sense of an issue but the downside is that it comes to be a fixed story that you and the system fixate on.

I took hypnotherapy training a long time after my “diagnosis” and this phenomena of a person in authority programming the unconscious was explained. It is known as Waking Hypnosis and Hyper-suggestibility.

It is usually covert … everyone is subject to suggestions made by others, especially those in a place of greater authority or expertise. When a patient seeks an opinion from a doctor, what the doctor tells the client can be very powerful.1

The part of the mind that normally filters and critiques is bypassed when in a heightened state of emotion like anxiety. The information goes straight to the subconscious as a fact.

In spite of my dislike of labels and authority, I owned the idea that I had Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) with a dose of mood disorder. I took physician recommended steps to deal with it. I still use a big Daylight Lamp each day through Depression Season and I take medication as needed. I eat right now and keep a normal sleep schedule. Unless I intend to hibernate like a bear all winter and get all moody – I need to keep an eye on the “condition”. But … I also realize that when I was initially labeled I bought into a sense of despair about being damaged “forever” that did not help the situation.

Since I took up a regular practice of Mindfulness Meditation I have become aware of the states of my mind. I see them shift and change and I know they are not absolute. I also see the story lines that the labels created. Like weather systems the states and stories of the mind pass and I have ceased to fear that they rule me. I have become more confident in myself again as I see the transience of thoughts and emotions. The meditation practice is part of an overall lifestyle change that I have been working on – for quite some time. A work in progress. I appreciate the assistance I received from the medical community – particularly the lifestyle guidance. I value the meditation training very much.

Peace 🌼

1 Hypnosis and Hypnotherapy Calvin D. Banyan and Gerald F. Kein p218

Meditation, Mindfulness, Non Attachment

Clouds – Thoughts – Mind

There is a spectacular drive in British Columbia called The Coquihalla Highway. It climbs an astonishing 1200 m in 47 km ( 3900 feet in 30 miles). Takes about a half hour to drive that from the town of Hope, BC. It is the first really big mountain pass heading east out of Vancouver, BC. As weather comes into it from the Pacific Ocean it gets very complex systems rolling about it’s mountain peaks and fabulous skies to go with that. I have had white knuckle drives across it when it is winter (made famous by the Highway through Hell series). After a winter drive I often swear I will never brave it again but then spring comes.

This past fall I drove it in it’s glory. Blue skies, fresh green trees and big fluffy white clouds greeted me. Babellz Art

I was really taken with the clouds against the blue sky. I drove along thinking about my issues in life – looking at the clouds and trees. Eventually I stopped and got out of the car to really look at the sky and the clouds. They were like big beings floating about. I felt they were very close – just above my head but when I went to take photos of them they seemed far away. A trick of the camera and a trick of the mind. From the perspective of my mind the sky seemed all cloud but from another perspective they were separate and there was a great deal of clear sky.

Like the thoughts of my mind – yup. I first thought of my thoughts as clouds in my early meditation days when I was with Cecile Kwiat. I was reminded of it again by Andy Puddicome in his Headspace App. It is a great way to let go.

I have been using Andy’s Headspace App for a quite a while now. I recommend it to quite a few folks. The first 10 lessons are free and can easily be repeated. Andy is a former Buddhist Monk now Buddhist entrepreneur – a beneficial entrepreneur. His free introductory section reframed my clouds to traffic on a road. That fits lately – cars move faster and beep more than clouds. My mind is pretty chatty.

Whether conceived as clouds, traffic or a river flowing by becoming aware that thoughts are constructs of the mind not absolutes is a relief to me each meditation. It allows non-attachment to develop. So much of what I conceive as urgent JUST isn’t and like clouds, cars and flowing streams will move on at their own pace without my interfering.

Peace 🌟

Healing

Exploring Energy Work

I began taking healing courses in the early 1980’s. At the time the practice of Therapeutic Touch (TT) was growing in popularity and was embraced by the nursing profession. I took a form of hands off healing akin to TT through the Washington Psychic Institute now offered through the Church of Divine Man. Later I took Reiki classes from Reiki Master – Phylis Victory.

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I view energy work as a way of connecting with another person’s  grid or “Matrix” that I believe we are all imbued with. When working on people I have often seen a grid of energy bars that the person’s is supported on.  I  understand it to be the fabric that underlies the human/earth experience. Out of regular sight but visible on the etheric level.

Vitalism is a philosophical and former scientific field that posited that a primal energy is inherent in all living things. I resonate with Vitalism’s basic premise that there is a force or energy (hello Star Wars! ) flowing through all the living beings on earth. Personally – I think inanimate objects possess an energy too but Vitalism was focused on the animate.  The formal scientific community moved away from Vitalism research in the 1800’s. Some scientists moved away from using the term Vitalism but still perceived a complex force was active in living beings that was beyond mechanistic models of life and beyond normal sight. These led to new theories of complexity like Quantum Physics.

Neil Bohr, Walter Elasser and others kept the discussion in their research.  More recently physicist such as The Fundamental Fysiks group continued it.

I have had experiences when participating in energy work that are vision like in their nature yet I believe to be real – so I ignore the skeptics and continue exploring. I am not preaching – just exploring. Open.

When I do energy work I “see” as if I am at several levels of being at once. I see the physical world. There is the person, their body and my hands give comfort. Then on a whole other level I see densities in their holographic like grid/matrix. I at times feel I am with the person out of time and space – yes like we are suspended in a space of gold grids and energetic flow. There are books on these subjects now like Michael Talbots’s  The Holographic Universe. When I began there were few.

Outside of the classes I have taken most of my learning has been experiential. I seem to have an experience then find a validation of the experience after. All quite fascinating.

Just Sharing …

🌟Peace

Contemplation, Meditation, Mindfulness

Diving in to Spiritual Exploration

I graduated into young adult hood in the 1970’s. Having come from a difficult home life I stumbled around for a decade – youth. I began exploring spiritually in the 1980’s. I discovered The Seth Writings and I was mesmerized. I took my first meditation class (founded in Buddhism) led by now deceased Cecile Kwiat, I took The Silva Method courses and began to use tarot cards. I figured there was a path to enlightenment in these actions although I wasn’t sure what that enlightenment might be! I just was driven to explore. The West Coast was brimming with classes and literature. I dove in.

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Reaching for the sun

Of the many teachings I explored I find the basic meditation class by Cecile the most important. I discovered great information from channeling sources like Seth. The tarot has helped me make decisions/clarify direction and The Siva Method is amazing for training the mind to expand potential. The greatest gains came from Cecile though. Her directions were to sit quietly for 30 minutes a day to watch my breath. Just sit and observe. I laugh as I recall those first few meditations as sitting with my eyes closed, counting my breath, all I was thinking was “All I see is black”! I was very physical and literal then. What the practice did over a long time though was allow me to see that I am separate from my thoughts and That is monumental. I am body, I am mind and I am something more that I call spirit.

I moved a lot in my younger days. I lost touch with Cecile. Her teachings stayed with me as I moved-through life though. I took to counting from 100 down to 1 to not drift off in thoughts. What I noticed was it calmed me considerably. Having grown up in a chaotic home my neural pathways are addicted to drama – the meditation practice settled me down. I returned to it as a means to get clarity over and over. My regret is that I did not commit to daily practice decades before I did.

Peace 🔆

Mindfulness

Spiritual Chronicle

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reflection and being

As a child of the 60’s who is now in her 60’s I feel that era’s ideal’s defined much of the being I am today. Peace, Love, Freedom to be – for all. The exploration of self encouraged at that time allowed my eclectic soul to grow and thrive. Growing up and living on the West Coast of America was like being invited to a fabulous buffet of educational and spiritual opportunity. I indulged! The following posts are about my many experiential learnings and how they have led me to embrace mindfulness, meditation and contemplation as my core foundation.